Damn right I'm happy

I got concerned the other day when I was with my friend MJ and she told me that after reading my blog she was saddened by it. That things weren't going well for me. This means a lot coming from a person that I went to 5 years of college with and is currently undergoing chemotherapy, and I'm having a bad run of it?

Then today I got into an even deeper conversation with the Hottie Engineering Guy, also someone I was in undergrad with. HEG came out to some his family while we were still at the big old Baptist university, but also decided to go through the Exodus program so he could be an "ex-gay." Needless to say it didn't quite work and he's dealing with full on coming out this many years later. I had no idea some of the rough times he went through with that entire process. I am blessed to have come out when I did, built up a strong support network of friends while my family was dealing with it, and in the end to have a family that while doesn't fully understand me does love me without condition or hesitation.

So with realizing I've got it pretty good I'm going to attempt to be a little more optimistic. I mean I still have my Marc (he's the cat in case anyone though my love life had magically improved), my friends, my home, and my new job. I have a ton of stuff to be excited about. I found a great new hobby in rowing that makes me feel good about myself and helps strengthen my body. Starting next Monday I return to one of the other loves of my life when I join Capital City Men's Chorus, they're going to Miami next year; I'm already starting to save up for it! I will still bitch about work because this new position is intense, but at least I'm the one in control there and not other people. So glad to be back and you're damn right, I'm happy!

For my fellow nerds.

Now that Stargate SG-1 is over (Michael Shanks.... mmmm he's yummy, I'll miss him), I've come to fall in love with Eureka this season. If you haven't seen it yet I would recommend that you start! I watched the first season and was slightly disappointed in how it seemed to drag on a bit, but now that the characters have been established they can finally get along with the story. Also, there are cute boys all over the place! You'll possibly see a few of them on Pretend Boyfriend Friday.

Back from Houston

Sorry for my absence and lack of warning, but I got back from my friend's wedding in Houston today. Some strange stuff happened, which I will discuss on here once I make a decision how much of it I want to broadcast to the world where the people involved might see it and see my true thoughts. The reason I put that disclaimer is that I'm a pretty guarded person and rarely let people into my inner sanctum. It's the most probable reason I'm still single. Should I start sharing that private side of myself. Will opening up to people allow me better relationships, or will be fears be realized and the moment I open up I get crushed. Only time will tell.

Hello Again

Here's a quick ditty for all of the lovely people I quite fortunately and randomly found/stumbled upon/stalked on this great world wide web today. (click the frog)

Pretend Boyfriend Friday #4

I'm not sure when it happened, but this boy got cute. I went and saw Transformers (best TV adaptation/comic movie EVER made, can't wait for a sequel, honestly) with the 30 Year-Old Virgin (coworker and friend, oh the stories I could tell about him, and should on here!) the other night. While Josh Duhamel is a total hottie, there is something to be said about being cute, funny, and not afraid to stand up to a 50 foot evil robot from another planet. Interesting facts about him: celebrates Christmas and Hanukkah (I agree with Darrin), only child, attended a magnet school, and he started doing stand up comedy as a child. He's also filming the next Indiana Jones film, can't wait to see that one too! And for those who care there are details on another film of his where you get to see his tush here.

5 Year Old Wisdom

Went out with The Girls to celebrate Cheryl's birthday. The Girls consist of 3 female coworkers, one of their friends who I adore, and me. Jody is the mother hen, being that she's had the most birthdays out of all of us, but lucky thing looks not a day past 25. Her 5 year old son has to be one of the wittiest people on the planet. The kid has a gift and the comic timing to endear himself to anyone. I was a nanny at one point in my life. From that experience I realized that because of who they are children have an amazing ability to see the world much more accurately than our brains full of bias. So I would like to impart with you his wisdom.

The 5 Stages of a Relationship:

1. You become friends.
2. You hold hands.
3. You kiss.
4. You have a sleepover.
5. You have cereal together.

PBF Make-up Vid

I know I missed Pretend Boyfriend Friday, but I just saw this...thanks to Donnie. If any of my friends ever wonder about my type here is yet another prime example, please note at the point where he makes the funny faces with about 2 minutes left to go he stops and has the CUTEST smile ever! That so makes me melt...and if I ever find out who's setting off firecrackers in my apartment complex I will sic Marc on you...he only looks sweet and innocent, when instructed he is a lean, mean, fighting machine.